Hello Blog!
I didn't mean to be away so long, but our Internet provider, AT&T the Craptastic, finally provoked my husband into abruptly ending our contract with them. We figure the nine extra dollars a month we now pay to not have them as our Internet service is worth the charge.
Now we have the local company and a dial up connection, which really is very fast. But they were swamped with business and it took them a week to get out to set up. Anyway, long story short, here we are again with excellent, steady, affordable Internet.
It is definitely fall down here. Most of the leaves have fallen, leaving a fine network of bare branches to define the hills. I have bright yellow mums at the front steps, a wreath of leaves on the door and spiced pumpkin candles inside. I love fall.
I have not gotten pregnant but I have found to my relief that I have completely burned myself out on that front. I can truly say that I no longer care, though I still can't say it with much grace. This is mainly because my desire for children has shifted towards adoption in a more permement and determined way. I don't want to go back to infertility treatments and it's possible that we won't.
I seem to be experiencing some kind of internal growth spurt, a deeper healing of things left over. This is great and all, but it also means that I'm uprooting (again) old ways of thinking and doing, and must put them back together in a better way. Because the issues I'm reconstructing have a lot of import for me, I feel like I need a good ally with experience and insight to help me in the process, so I've found a really well qualified therapist down in Louisville.
She has thirty years experience and I really liked her philosophy of healing. She was booked out two to three weeks, but I don't mind waiting that long for an appointment, since I'm not in crisis or anything, I just want some guidence. I'm looking forward to the growth process and being in therapy with someone who knows what they're doing.
Anyway, as my long time readers can probably tell, I'm not in a "writing" kind of mode, but I felt bad about leaving my poor blog empty for so long. Things are good, I'm deeply enjoying the simple quiet of my life. Who knows what's coming up? A lot, if we do go the fost/adopt route, so I'm just enjoying this little breathing space right now.
